Did you know, Thailand means ‘land of the free’. I wonder if there is another country that means ‘home of the brave’? Ha but seriously.

George is my favorite because he was so genuine and spiritual and very under appreciated. I believe he was far more gifted than was realized by most. He was a sincere romantic in ever sense of the word and his talent both musically and lyrically were fabulous. There is something enigmatic about George that makes him far more interesting and desirable to know and understand more than John, Paul, or Ringo but I do have to say that all of the Beatles are magnificent examples of human beings and have vastly improved the world of music and beyond!

I don't believe my fame has been realized yet. But I do believe a day will come. When it does I hope that I will be famous for the beautiful things I create through writing, photographs drawing, painting, and other medias. In the simplest sense I want to be just as Andy was, an artist.

Even if my fame is not realized in the magnitude that Andy's was I will not stress. For I believe that one only fails if they do not try. Success occurs with every attempt. Life is not about finding yourself, it is about creating yourself. Molding yourself into that person that you want to be. Being able to look into the reflection of the sleekest mirror or the clearest lake and say, 'yes, this is me, I am joyful, I am being true to myself, and I love myself and everyone else because of this'.

It is often said that fame is a fickle thing. Fleeting is all of life. So enjoy what you have while you have it. And accept what comes next with open arms.

I doubt I will ever grow up in this reality. I have too many ideas constantly swarming through my mind like bees. But without these bees that pollinate what becomes our thoughts we would not exist today.

What I really want to do is a little bit of everything. I might just do that. For now I believe I am going to major in Creative Writing and minor in Philosophy. For it is expression in any sense that excites me and rocks me to my core.

If I could inspire others that would be a dream come true. I would feel self actualized.

My business card would read as so;

Alexis-
Creative writer, philosopher, photographer, and performer.
Seek if you need something created, need to create, or need to be inspired.

I only hope that all my dreams become realized so that I may see what other things upon which to experience in this life.

Really all I truly aspire to do for the rest of my existence is to love and to return that love. For love is the greatest gift we have ever received and thus the greatest gift we could ever give!

Okay so maybe my "business" card will read;

Alexis Snider
Lover of Life!

The most obnoxious thing about history is that it has the ability to repeat itself, continuously if we let it. Beating us into the ground until we learn out lesson. I’m not going to withstand a hold like this over me much longer. Not from anyone. I have tried my best to be your friend. But there are things that break a person. And when the rest of the world is walking out on me and you are flipping me off with your stupid mother fuck-er words I’m gonna grant you no more.

This all feels stupid. To write this. To feel this. Only because it is such old news. And now I am making it history for the very last time. When I go through my posts, I hope I can recall all the shit you have put me through all the while trying to pretend like you are such a help.

Help from you with a double sided sword. I won’t accept it anymore. I cannot. My mind, body, and soul just cannot take the beating, anymore.

I know you feel like you have more weight to carry, more pressure to withstand but the thing is darling, you have no idea. Everyone has problems. Everyone has good and bad days. Nothing that you go through is gonna kill you before your time.

So suck it up and be nice. Truly nice. Not just some persona that you play out perfectly to every person you meet. Something different and delicate and deep like your lies. You need to wake up. You need to realize the past will catch up with you.

And it is for me. But I am learning my lesson finally. I’m saying good-bye to you, hope you find your way out of this mess. I’m done.

It’s 6am now how’s that for an early morning post? I have actually not gone to bed yet. I am well aware that this is very healthy but I believe my lack of sleep is a direct result from the fact that I am lazy most of the day there for I don’t really need sleep towards the end of it. I hate to say I am being lazy because it feels so productive.

Everyone else in the house other than dad will be up soon. I think I might go start a pot of coffee. I am gonna need it. I am not going to go to sleep until after I make sure I have an interview for some job made today. I just won’t rest until it’s done. It is strange to me how people will read my blogs on one site regularly without missing a beat and on other sites no one seems to visit. I am going to attribute that to the fact that I am more active on the sites that actually get responces.

All this is really nonsense. I don’t really have much to write about. I pretty much wrote my entire heart and soul out on tumblr today. It was massively long even for me. I discovered or rather used my stumble button today and found a most interesting website. I think everyone should take a look at it. The concept is absolutely flawless in my opinion. You send an email as your current self to your future self. But it gets even better. Firstly you can decide when you want the email to be delievered and secondly, while all emails are sent anonomously you can choose whether you want the post to be public or private. The public ones have a chance of being placed inside the future me book. Give it a look, it is really awesome. 

And a few words of wisdom for everyone as they start off their day,
 “Be the best, do the best, expect the best. But be prepared to face the worse”
pavithra

Have a good morning.

Yesterday I was informed that people will believe in anything and I believe it! But honestly we look at that and are ashamed for some reason. But isn’t that a beautiful thing? The fact that are minds will allow us to percieve anything as being true. The answer for me is yes, it is beautiful. True is relative so it is quite possible that everything you are being told is in part true and in part a lie. The reality that we percieve does not actually exist and we will more than likely never be able to see past this illusion. It is just what we are as humans. But even more interesting is the fact that within this false sence of reality we also have our own individual perhaps more accurate perceptions of reality. The reality that we do not show to anyone else. Our ‘true selves’.

Today I am going to be spending online as usual but this time I am going to spend most of it doing different research than I usually do. Reasearch of the nature of man and our constant quest to find a purpose. What kind of ideologioes do men carry within them daily to help them sustain life. Giving each person a different completely understandable reason for living. Purpose for life itself. I will never stop asking that question. I am almost sure we aren’t suppossed to knwo until close to the end. I keep going back to the belief that is a basic natural need and desire for love within ourselves and for and to be recieve by others. An exchange of appreciation, admiration, and acceptance if you will. One love we all strive for.

I downloaded some audiobooks. On the Road, Junky, Naked Lunch, How to Operate Your Brain, and several others. I am going to start listening to books instead of watching so much video. I like voices. I like imagining it for myself. Plus I have made a goal to read at least ten books within the next year. That isn’t very much but I read that less than 4% of American read. This post is full of irony. Such as the fact that I believe that humans will believe anything and I read that les then 4% of American read. Lol. I think about things as if they are each so intricate and so very important. Deep down I just know that life must be taken in with the longest of breathes. Held in for as long as we can and let go so slowly that we can let it leave us comfortably. Life is like breath that breeds widsom, not knowledge. Knowledge and wisdom are two very different things.

I must rather seek wisdom rather than knowledge. Wisdom is helpful in all ways and touches you deep into your soul. Wisdom is stronger and more positively rather than erogantly embraced such that knowledge is. Wisdom is only to be learn by living and knowledge can be read, knowledge can be replacable but other ‘facts’. Wisdom is truth.

This blog has been far too rambling even for me but what can a girl do?

This will be a very short blog. But I was just thinking about death. Death of a loved one or any one in particular.  I believe the scariest thing about it is the fact that everyone else’s lives go on about almost as usual after someone is gone for a while. That’s morbid in a way but are we supposed to think differently about the world because someone has died. People are born and  people die everyday. But yet every human seeks something bigger than their simple little world they live in. Something bigger than their 9 to 5. Bigger than their homes. Bigger than their cars, and their pose possessions. Bigger than their pride, anger, lust, greed, gluttony, envy, and even bigger than their laziness. Those are the seven deadly sins by the way but this THING that we are all looking for is bigger than those. Just so you know.

But what is this thing? This meaning? This truth? We are all seekers. I believe a lot of us have lost our want for purpose. Our need for reason. Justice. Many of us just let life pass us by. Lots of us are in the audience just watching the world go round us. Perhaps we are watching and waiting. Waiting for our chance to move. Motion is another strange thing to think about. Motion and the number of humans alive with each a different thought, want, need. Some similar. And think about that.

Think about if every person in the world decided to do the same exact movement of motion at the same time. What kind of change would that enact? It’s quite interesting to me the numbers of people alive and so many of us only thinking about existing on our own terms when existing is really about everyone.

That to me is why I find funerals strange. The death of someone close to you; I mean you feel as if for just a while the world has stopped or you want nothing more than it to just Stop. But it doesn’t. Why doesn’t it stop? I believe the answer lies within the fact that every human being is important just as being a part of the whole. 

As one person only so much can be done, but as a whole, We, the world, could do it all. Nothing could stand in our way. Why don’t people start working together instead of in competition?  I’m not sure either way but it is far past the time I planned to go to sleep. So I am going to do just that. Hopefully I will wake up and write again. Cause this was supposed to be a morning…here’s your daily coffee kinda blog.

I guess I lied about the length.

I hated that last blog post. There were so many items on that list and so many of them decided not to display a picture. I got a digital slr but much to my dismay of paying $500+ for it, (which is actually very cheap and reasonable) I lost my job. I am unemployed but summer is finally here. I have so many choices right now to make and every time I speak to my mother it seems I start to cry. I feel like she does not believe in me at all. I feel she is completely disappointed with who I am. I am a dreamer. But I love to learn and meet and see and experience real life. It is about time for me to wake up to reality. I want to so badly I am just not that realistic. I am the most idealistic person that I know. It seems to be a problem anymore.

But with all that said it has been some time since I have been connected and inspired by the world wide web but today is a new day and I am feeling pretty delicious. Web 2.0 is a concept of which I had only heard about until recently. Today I have decided not only to research it but to take an avid part in it.

Here are some sites I plan to visit and give reviews for so that the next person deciding whether or not the be inspired and proclaim a place in the world of web 2.0 can be predisposed to my opinions because I love to share and I hope this is helpful … sooner than later.

Websites

feed my app
-also offers reviews of awesome web 2.0 sites, applications and so on.

So Sause

You Version

Blog Amp

Penzu

Intodit

Foodari

Spraygraphic

My Art Plot

Friend Feed

Gwap

Scoutle

Tune Up Media

Jams Bio

Filemail

Picoy

Zigtag

Snappville

72photos

My Happy Planet

Evernote

Protagonize

Icojoy

Slideboom

Oosah

Profile Heaven

We Heart It

Food Feed

Fileqube

Youniverse

Wallowr

MuxTape

Filedropper

LearnHub

Simple Bucket

Pod Fitness

Social Thing

Mp3gle

Mighty Quiz

Coffeenatic

OOS

WebCanvas

Cloudo

CSS Type Set

Off Type

Tipit

Job Bite

Juke Fly

uTest

Triggit

Wonder How To

Less Memories

Blist

Control C

Sprout Builder

Woho

http://www.spongefish.com/

http://www.widgetop.com/

http://www.web2wave.com

http://www.rubiconproject.com/

http://www.roxer.com/

http://www.we7.com/

http://search.galaxyit.com/

http://floobs.com/

http://www.iconspedia.com/

http://www.uploadpedia.com

that is all for now. I’ve got some signing up to do.

It is time at last to complete my first blog entry into the clean slate of my coffee cup. I have once again stayed up excessively late in the hopes that I might discover something about myself or the world in general. I have come to the conclusion that the world is full of crazies no matter where you go. So be on the look out for those kind of people kids. Also be on the look out for good people they are extremely rare and hard to find and I recommend that once you find someone worthy of the word good, you keep them close.

I find this time to be the most appropriate time thus far to post to this blog because it is actually very earlier in the morning. The coffee cup message this morning is be exclusive.

It is good to be picky, it is good to place a judgement upon character but not upon someone. It is good to tell the truth, always no matter if it hurts you or some one else. Always tell one hundred percent truth. To yourself and to others. Never lie to others but even more importantly do not ever lie to yourself because you will leave your true identity and goals far behind. Stay out of bad behaviors but if you get involved in them, do you best to get out. Never ever loose faith in yourself!

Good morning, have a beautiful day!